I'LL BE THE MOON THAT SHINES ON YOUR PATH

09:31 pm

well here i am. all moved for now.
here till March 1 anyway.
what a journey. im so fucking tired.

Current Mood: aggravated

10:14 pm

i'll write later

10:22 pm - lose the ones we love

_{my doode lost her daddy yesterday.  its hard to say the rite things in times like these. i hope she finds some peace with some nice memories. 
i love you doode.  im very sorry for your loss.
xoxoxo}

03:48 pm

WELL FUCK.  3 DAY SUSPENSION.  shit fuck dam.
i think i'll paint the apartment.

01:41 am

so yeah, if only i had a time machine, id probably,,,,,,
well yeah i would.

01:34 am

yeah , kinda too bad  the way things turned out.  your full of bull shit. nice thing iz,, u have to live with urself ,,,,,i dont

03:32 am

SO YEAH,  i'm in my apartment and Ricardo moves out, chuck iz baq home, i finally get the place to myself!  
My Sarah has been spending alot of time at the apt. helping me out  and keeping me company.
i like being with her altho its very hard to be so close, and have to keep my distance. fuck its so hard. some
times all i want iz to be held, she does'nt understand. she wont even get close to me. that makes me feel like i have a 
disease. i try to keep her happy and take care of her. i dont know what to do. i want her soooo bad!

05:12 am

you know, as many times as i wanted to get over you i find myself

forgiving you instead,loving you even more.  what is this that you've

done to me?

01:44 am

a full day of packing, packing, packing.

i want to be out hopfully by monday.

Current Mood: crappy

07:37 pm

well today is'nt just another day ,, in fact its a day with much mixed emotions, and rain.

Alex is going back to school which makes me very happy, Katy is very exicited that she will have her brother with her at

the same school. ( she's going to be a freshman)  and she'll have her brother at home again. i have such great kids!!

things will be very different here without my buddy. seems like they don't stick around very long.  im greatful for the time that we did have. i got to know my son as he really is.  i missed so many years not having him with me, so we had the chance to get reaquainted with one another.

im so proud of him.

i love you Alex with all my heart.

love dad

11:23 am

im moving today.  i don't know where. i'll be in touch with you when im settled some where.

my thoughts are always with you, and your always in my heart. take care dear one. i miss you.

El

05:34 pm

well today iz the last day of another begining,,,only to have to start all over again.

im too old to have to start all over again,, oh well   gotsta roll with the punches i guess.

gotta stay strong

peace out

10:11 am

when was the last time you asked yourself,,,

maybe he's right. maybe i would pass up someone

who i can trust.

who would put me first

who would show me respect

treat me as an equal

and be a great lover

Current Mood: frustrated

04:52 am - SO YEAH

life has been alittle strange around here. Sara and Mike are still on the rocks.

we have no car still, and having to depend on other ppl for rides really sux.

Sarah and Chelsey make it by a couple times a week, but their visits are so short

anymore its like "hi"- "bye". oh well and so it goes, and so it goes. my friend

Melina had a birthday on Saterday. she turned 18. she's so adoreable.

shit with all the "nonsignificant" other female bullshit going on, it sure

is nice to talk with her. like ole times. *smiles* it's so good to have Alex

here with me. it's like a void has been filled. i hope Katy will follow soon.

work iz a bitch as usual, but at least im employed. Lucia stops in still about

once a week, and she cries every time she see's me. i've pretty much resigned my-

self to "what could have been" so yeah, thats about it. i miss Mel's l.j.

peace out!!!

Current Mood: depressed

12:36 pm

so yeah,,,WTF.

PRETTY NORMAL.

PIMPS,HO'S CUNTS,QUEEF'S

PEACE

06:28 am

so yeah, mel loves alex, alex iz a pimp, i love mel. katy loves everyone. wayde called mel.

the concert was hella. sheila still bitchin bout everything.

pretty normal round here.

peace

06:55 pm

alex iz moving in today! im so excited.

this should be really interesting.he'll prolly inherit all muah gurls too   lol

he's sooo  "HELLA PIMP"  lol  haha

later!

11:11 pm

your teeth look wonderful! *smiles*

xo

01:49 am

I TAUGHT THIS FLY GURL EVERYTHING SHE KNOWS

NOW THATS TALENT   IM GOOD!!!

11:44 pm

well my two buddies came by today. it's always nice when they visit.

sarahs loosening up a little bit i think, and chelsey's cool with

what ever. so yeah, it's all good.  we smoke alot

i like sarah. she's tall. very pretty. pretty smart.

alittle nieave.  i think she's warming up to my weird sense of humor.

she likes Jenna Jameson. oh yeah!!

well fuck, i hope this fucking rain stops soon.  godam,

i gotta get back to work.

k bye

Current Mood: calm